There’s Something Inherently Wrong With Me
Today I cleared a negative belief I had about myself. That belief was, “There’s something inherently wrong with me.” Attached to it were beliefs that I’m fundamentally flawed, I’m not good enough, who do I think I am anyway, and I’m not likable.
Let me explain how this came up. I’ve been preparing to be interviewed for a podcast, submitting my applications for giving a TEDx Talk, and working on creating workshops to help others understand the power of their imagination to rewrite their lives. In this process, I need to create application videos and other video material.
I’ve struggled mightily to do this. At first I wasn’t able to be myself on camera. So I cleared the belief the other day that “When I’m vulnerable I am unsafe.” As you’ll read in that post, that being unsafe was actual panic, I’m going to be hurt, fight or flight unsafe. When I cleared that I was able to be more myself on camera. But then something else came up!
All morning I wanted to cry and was just feeling very dejected. Since I’ve been clearing things every day with all these things I’m doing to make myself vulnerable to the world, I had decided I wasn’t going to clear anything today, because I was simply exhausted from doing it. But my body/mind/spirit had other plans.
You Can’t Ignore What Needs to Be Cleared
Since you can’t ignore what needs to be cleared without consequences, I sat down in my bedroom and got my journal and pen. I tested with kinesiology to see what all this sadness was related to. It was related to the video I’d made yesterday where I actually was able to be more myself. I turned the video in for homework with Judy Carter who runs The Message of You Workshop online. We submit homework and she reviews it at our group sessions every two weeks.
I held inside fear, anxiety, worry and excessive concern about her critiquing that video. In testing to see what I believed about myself, the belief I had was, “There’s something inherently wrong with me.” So I used EFTA to clear it – a modified tapping technique developed by Dr. Henry Grayson.
It feels really good to have cleared that. Before I did my stomach was in knots and I was nauseous and feeling like throwing up. When I asked my body where the belief was stored, it was in my stomach area. No wonder I was feeling sick!
Do You Believe There’s Something Inherently Wrong With You?
One of the fundamental beliefs survivors of trauma and abuse have is that there’s something inherently wrong with us. We believe we are fundamentally flawed. This belief may have formed from one experience or many, but it’s often there.
I’m here to tell you it’s a lie. You are a beautiful creation and you were made exactly as you should be. What others have done to you does not make you a mistake, unwanted, unlovable, or inherently wrong. Just because others taught you that and reflected that to you doesn’t mean it’s true. It may have been their truth but it wasn’t the truth.
You and I each have a purpose. One thing that will keep us from living out that purpose is the lie that there’s something inherently wrong with us. I am now one less person living on this planet who believes that about myself. My hope is that if you believe this about yourself, you will clear it too!
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