How It Feels to Rewrite a Scene
Let’s talk about how it feels to rewrite a scene in the movie of your life. The first time you rewrite a scene through any of the methods described on this site or one you know of, the intensity of the feelings may surprise you. In my experiences both alone and with therapists, I have done some pretty strange things and had some interesting desires to move in certain ways.
At first I felt like an idiot, but as I got used to the fact that my body was simply trying to release pent up, trapped energy, I went with it. It also helped that my therapist was trained in micro-movement and how powerful that can be to release the desire for a larger movement such as pushing a huge slab of concrete off of you if that’s what your body feels like doing.
Some Things You Might Feel As You Rewrite
Don’t be afraid of how it feels to rewrite a scene. Your body needs to release whatever it has stored. Understanding what may happen can help you feel more comfortable releasing this trapped energy. The great thing is that the rewriting process will make you stronger.
Each of us is different so you may not feel much, or you may feel deep feelings. Regardless, a mind shift will take place, so go with whatever your body is telling you. As you rewrite you may:
- Get goosebumps
- Yawn
- Have your face flush
- Have your eyes fill with tears
- Burp
- Cry
- Wail
- Scream
- Yell
- Moan
- Breathe deeply and blow out your air with or without throat sounds
- Feel things in your body such as
- constriction of your throat
- tightness in your chest
- tingling in your body
- a desire to throw up
Movement as You Rewrite a Scene
You may also have a desire to move by:
- Standing up
- Shaking
- Pushing something
- Hitting something
- Swaying
- Hunching over
- Mimicking throwing up
- Opening up your arms
- Putting up your fists to box/fight
- Throwing something
- Running
- Pacing
- Jumping
- Moving your head and neck different ways
- Stomping or shaking your feet
- Opening your mouth
- Moving your eyes
- Scrunching your face
- Raising your shoulders
Go with whatever your body decides it needs to feel and do. This is individual. How much you feel and want to move depends on the trapped energy stored within you and where it’s stored.
Each Experience Will Be Different
I have had experiences where the anger, resentment and rage or hurt were so deep I just screamed and wailed for 10 minutes or more. In others, the sadness overwhelmed me and I cried and cried. Other experiences I breathed out the emotion with moans, and kept doing that until there was no more sound. During one I swayed my hips and moved in odd robotic movements until my body had no desire to move anymore.
Other times my reactions and feelings were minimal and passed quickly. It truly depends on the intensity of the experience, belief, or download.
As you move through the different parts of a rewriting exercise and toward the end you may feel:
- Release
- Elation
- Joy
- Empowerment
- Fatigue/exhaustion
- Peace
- Renewed Energy
Once again, there is no right or wrong way to release trapped energy. It doesn’t have to feel a certain way to rewrite a scene. The important thing is that you release whatever is pent up and let your body do what it needs to do.
What To Do When Something Else Comes Up
One more thing. You may suddenly feel something else rising to the surface soon after you’ve rewritten a scene. This is because as we peel the layers, there will likely be another layer underneath, or as in a spider web, another connection that needs to be processed.
That’s okay, but I don’t recommend you work through more than two things on the same day. Three if you absolutely must, but this should be a rare exception. Whenever possible work through only one experience in a day, and preferably give yourself two days in between.
Give Yourself Time to Adjust to Rewriting a Scene
Remember, this process is tiring and it may make you a bit raw around others. Give yourself time and space to rest.
As I was going through this process I would let my family know I was working through something so they knew I wouldn’t be at the top of my game as a wife and mother. My husband would help more with the dishes and cooking and the kids. I wasn’t up for decision-making meetings. And often-times I just wanted to rest in my bed and watch a movie. That’s okay.
Depending on the intensity of the experiences you need to rewrite, the after effects will vary. The important thing is that you expect to need space and let those around you know you need space.
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