There comes a day as an adult when dysfunctional things that happened to us as children come to the surface where they’ve been buried for 10, 20, or 30 years or more. When you can no longer function as an adult because your world is crashing in around you and you feel like a helpless child unable to protect yourself and alone with no one to help you.
This is what happened to me when I was a 37 year old mom of three and a wife to a wonderful man. In an instant my life seemed to fall apart and I felt trapped, terrified, and helpless. Every feeling, every fear, and every hurt I had been trying to avoid came crashing in on me like a tidal wave.
That was the moment I realized I needed help.
And get help I did. I spent the next three years suffering from Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD), being triggered daily. Things got way worse before they got better. But through many years of therapy and healing techniques like journaling, visualization, rewriting my experiences, EMDR, RTF ministry, Brainspotting, and Henry Grayson’s TFT and EFTA tapping protocols, I learned to rewrite my life one messed up story at a time.
Not only was I living with years of my own trauma, I had inherited a pretty messed up family line of it too. So in the process of healing, I also cleared parental downloads and ancestral trauma that had been handed down for generations, that weren’t even mine.
Now, my story is one of hope, love and joy. I have gone from victim to victory. I’ve walked out of shame and into the light. It’s a daily process of walking in faith and trusting God, learning to trust my own intuition, and changing my thoughts daily. And it’s worth it!
I’m a Freelance Writer, Certified Canfield Success Principles Trainer, YouTube Creator, and Blogger. I’m still a mom to three amazing kids and wife to that same wonderful husband. And I’m learning what peace is. Not the peace I’ll have in heaven, but the peace of not always being on alert, watching for danger, sensing it around every corner. I’ve processed the trauma I grew up with and I’m helping others heal their trauma too.
I daily chose to rewrite my life and not let the narrative that was written for me define me. It is hard work. In fact, it is the hardest thing I’ve ever done – yes even harder than giving birth, raising children, and staying happily married. But with God’s intervention and guidance and my willingness to heal, I am who I am today.
Some who knew me before my healing journey might say I’m a completely different person. I suppose in many ways I am. But…
I think I simply found who I really am and now the real me can shine to the world.
Links to Other Pages About Rewriting Your Life
Out of Shame and Into the Light
EFTA to Clear Negative Beliefs
Rewrite Trauma with Brainspotting
How It Feels to Rewrite a Scene